But i didn't mention about anything.

We just hang around and played with Simba for the rest of the day

With just thoughts about dogs and playtime on our minds.

Don't get me wrong.

I'm not resentful.

In fact, i'm thankful.

Even if i wanted to blame someone,

It has to be me.

Not like they didn't give me one of my choices.

Its not even a bad thing.

Its just me and my expectations.

No, its not their fault.

If someone has to pay, its me.

And i'm willing to.

My bad decisions keep coming back to hit me in the head.

I've never stopped questioning if what i did was right for me.

And everytime i'd stopped to think about it,

I'd just wish that i could have been smarter in that single moment.

Because it really ruined me.

Sometimes its just better to do what you're told instead of being yourself.

Why didn't i listened?

No, i don't want to dwell on this and feel sorry for myself.

I'm better than this.

So what if i fall?

I'll just get up and brush the dirt off my knees before continuing on.

So what if i meet a dead end?

I have plenty of alternative routes. (Though not exactly my cup of tea.)

So what if i made a mistake?

I have the strength to accept the responsibility and at least i try to do something about it.

Its tough not to blame myself.

I keep hearing myself persecuting me in my head.

I have the tolerance and determination to continue on.

But its in my head where i get beaten up badly the most.

Life's a journey. Every minute is a new experience. Every fall is a lesson learnt.

In time when i've paid my dues, every lesson learnt will build me up stronger.

No, i'm not an optimist.

I'm just determined and stubborn.

I wail, i sulk, i complain, i insult.
But i still complete my tasks at least at an acceptable level, or even better than acceptable.

And the best part about this
Is when it happens,
I always find it heartwarming to have friends who are just there to support.
Its not said out loud or i may have even ignored some, but trust me,
It made a difference for me.

But i didn't mention about anything.

We just hang around and played with Simba for the rest of the day

With just thoughts about dogs and playtime on our minds.

Don't get me wrong.

I'm not resentful.

In fact, i'm thankful.

Even if i wanted to blame someone,

It has to be me.

Not like they didn't give me one of my choices.

Its not even a bad thing.

Its just me and my expectations.

No, its not their fault.

If someone has to pay, its me.

And i'm willing to.

My bad decisions keep coming back to hit me in the head.

I've never stopped questioning if what i did was right for me.

And everytime i'd stopped to think about it,

I'd just wish that i could have been smarter in that single moment.

Because it really ruined me.

Sometimes its just better to do what you're told instead of being yourself.

Why didn't i listened?

No, i don't want to dwell on this and feel sorry for myself.

I'm better than this.

So what if i fall?

I'll just get up and brush the dirt off my knees before continuing on.

So what if i meet a dead end?

I have plenty of alternative routes. (Though not exactly my cup of tea.)

So what if i made a mistake?

I have the strength to accept the responsibility and at least i try to do something about it.

Its tough not to blame myself.

I keep hearing myself persecuting me in my head.

I have the tolerance and determination to continue on.

But its in my head where i get beaten up badly the most.

Life's a journey. Every minute is a new experience. Every fall is a lesson learnt.

In time when i've paid my dues, every lesson learnt will build me up stronger.

No, i'm not an optimist.

I'm just determined and stubborn.

I wail, i sulk, i complain, i insult.
But i still complete my tasks at least at an acceptable level, or even better than acceptable.

And the best part about this
Is when it happens,
I always find it heartwarming to have friends who are just there to support.
Its not said out loud or i may have even ignored some, but trust me,
It made a difference for me.